Friday the 13th/Personal Issues

Greetings!

As today it's one of this year's 'Friday the 13ths' I just felt like making a small post. It's probably just going to be me talking about personal stuff and other random things, probably Bat Fit too.

First, I'll start with, Happy Friday the 13th, everyone!

I'm currently writing this while listening to the Cure's 'Friday I'm in Love', probably one of my favorite songs, haha. Every Friday now, I seem to pull on my headphones and just twirl and dance around the room while listening to it, it seems to make the whole day seem better.

Speaking of headphones, I bought another computer, as my laptop broke 2 months ago, and this one, which we bought from a COMPUTER SHOP doesn't work, that's the 2nd one we've bought, and both have the exact same problem, so I kind of spent the last couple of days snapping at everything and trying to avoid exploding.

Do you have any tips on dealing with severe stress? As I punched the hell out of my arms while exercising, and of course I ended up pulling a tendon, so now I haven't been able to exercise at all.  (Damn this unfit self!)

Also mom went to have a seminar with fellow councelors, and when she got home she discussed an actually important issue with me.

Judgement and Shyness.

Although I'm usually friendly enough and more than happy to talk and share my things with people, in the past I've had a bad habit of judging people/things harshly without giving them any sort of chance. I'm just so picky that if someone says something, or if a shirt has one little wrong thing, I have difficulty accepting them/it.

Through becoming a Goth and running this blog, I've been able to interact with people more, and I've been able to be less judgemental, so here's a big thank you to all of you followers, talking with you and posting here helps me out so much!

I also seem to assume too much, without actually knowing what the other person thinks, I automatically assume that they hate me if I said one wrong thing, and it's an awful feeling. Every day I have to force myself to remember that everybody doesn't hate me, and that I do have at least some talents.

What the other councellors said was that I needed to make a push in this area, also in Bat Fit one of the challenges was to get rid of a BAD HABIT, so I think judgment and over calculation are 2 things I need gone, now.

For my own interest I took a survey - Introvert or Extrovert, and I wound up with 20% extrovert and 80% introvert, and I guess that makes sense, as if I'm in a crowd of people (Like at a party) I tend to shrink towards the back, sit somewhere in the shadows and knit or read. If I'm forced to join the main group I feel like bursting into tears and running as far as I can, or at best I just feel uncomfortable.

At the same time, sometimes I like attention, I can often talk to people clearly and without hesitation, but it's still an issue.

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One thing that's also holding me back is that I feel so nervous about travelling anywhere that it's extremely difficult for me to go anywhere alone. I probably could, if I forced myself, but my sense of direction (Particularly on public transport) is just shot. Like, I'd prefer to walk for 20 minutes instead of taking a 7 minute bus ride, just because I never remember where the correct stops or times are.

But due to this new councel, I phoned Alisha (Sure, she may not appreciate Goth that much, but I can't judge her too harshly, right?) and we should be seeing each other sometime next week.

As much as I'd love to say my computer and online people are all I need for friends, that's not really the case. I have to have at least SOME interaction with the outside world, or I'll be hiding from reality all my life. 

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Anyhow. About Bat Fit, I might not have many more updates, (Have to wait for this dumb shoulder to heal) but I may have a few outfit posts coming, as I just got some gorgeous new skirts. *Dances happily*

Thanks for reading this, even though it's sappy and personal, that's what everyone does at least once, right? And also because I feel like I should be completely honest around you guys.

Plus. Saying stuff online is kind of easier then in real life.

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Just warning you, every time I get a comment or follower, I tend to clap and bounce in my chair in happiness, and if I especially am fond of someone or their blog, I will stalk them like crazy.

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And yeah, anything to help out with stress? So far all that's helped me is drinking a bucket load of tea, browsing tumblr and writing this blog post. (The punching my arms out DID NOT WORK. Sigh)

Farewell! - I appreciate all of you, and I value every lovely follower and comment I get. If I ever meet any of you, it should be nice to give you a hug or so. :D

Farewell!